Sunday, March 17, 2013

the one with what i'm looking for...

Preface: It sounds cliché, and probably means that I've watched WAY too much SATC (I am on my second set of discs...), but sometimes when I'm sitting at my laptop I feel a bit like Carrie Bradshaw.

"I couldn't help but wonder..."

I think this phrase is probably where most of my blogs start. Musings. Ideas. Thoughts. Questions. Conundrums. Call them what you will. When I start looking for answers is usually when the thoughts start flowing. Lately I've found myself constantly looking for answers. About all different kinds of things. Some answers I know I'll never find. Sometimes I'm just really looking for affirmation of what I already know. Sometimes in the process of asking the question, I find the answer I wasn't even looking for. But they live here. The thoughts and questions and answers I seek, they can all be found here (well, most of them anyway. This is the internet after all. There has to be a little privacy...). I share them with whoever is reading because, frankly, I think a lot of us are asking the same questions. Or are thinking them. Or are trying to figure things out...just like me. And who wants to be doing it alone? Ultimately the answers and decisions you make are your own, but maybe we can move together in the same direction. And if not, that's ok too. No one said you have to be my friend or read my blog. But I'm kinda a fun girl and I do like to laugh a there's that.

Anyway, that's a really long way of saying...I wrote the entry below last Thursday in between my students' lessons. I didn't get a chance to finish it, but just like's a work in progress. There will be more thoughts about this along the way. But until, run, laugh, love...and be happy.

It's always hard when I have two different blog ideas floating around in my head and they're both at opposite ends of the spectrum. Do I write the raw blog (and no, I'm not talking about good) or do I write the one about my workout activities? Sometimes the better question is which one do I have time to write? But then again, really what drives my best blogs is the inspiration (inspiration...not persperation...this isn't a workout blog yet) behind my topic.

I've had a lot of things to consider lately. I've been going to church with a friend who just started recently attending church again, in addition to still going to my own church. (Apparently the italics are hot tonight.) That has been a blog-worthy experience in itself. I have attended a Lutheran church my whole life. And I firmly stand behind my beliefs and why I believe them. However, I think it's good to experience what else is out there. I think sometimes the trap that some of us fall into is just because someone is doing something differently, it's automatically wrong. It's also a great opportunity to discuss with the important people in your life what exactly it is that you do believe. (See, I told you it would be a night of italics.)

But we've going to forgo the religion talk for tonight (but stay tuned. I will be writing a blog on my experiences. Otherwise known as: "My View from the Pew." You know I actually wanted to write a blog just about my experiences visiting all different Milwaukee churches. Ah yes, another lifetime when I have oodles of time. Like when I'm 80. Wait, let's be real...I'll see be going 100 miles an hour when I'm 80. BUT I DIGRESS...).

We're also going to skip the workout talk. Although I am pretty pumped to write that blog as well. I'm going to have to do that sometime this weekend as I'm starting something *brand new* on Sunday. I'M REALLY EXCITED (whoa caps, I didn't mean to do that, but I figured since the caps and the words were apropos I'd leave it) to share it with you. Onto the Saturday "to do" list it goes...

As I'm typing this, in the background I'm listening to the Dixie Chick's cover of Stevie Nicks song "Landslide." In the last couple weeks I've had some really good opportunities to reflect on a lot of different things. My job (huzzah to reviews and raises), my financial goals (trying to get all my debt paid off...except student loans. We've entered into a long term relationship. Ha.), my spiritual life (constant work in progress), my musical self (never enough attention here), my physical life (dear WAC, I'm in love with you, even if you beat me down every time I'm there.) my race goals for the summer (two triathlons, one sprint and one olympic, and a half marathon), etc. But I've also gotten to think about me and where my head is at as far as some of the relationships in my life. Family. Friends. Love.

More to come...stay tuned.

1 comment:

  1. Hmm...relationships with those who are still waiting on your "To Do" list?;) Love ya!(And your ramblings, too.)